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Week 26 // Stardust

 

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This image marks the halfway point in my year-long self portrait project. This is both exciting and also a little bit nerve-wracking. When I look back… it is hard to believe that just six months ago, none of these images even existed. It’s almost impossible to believe in fact, because they are so much a part of me that I cannot imagine a time when they did not exist. Perhaps in some way, these images have existed inside me far longer than I will ever realize. It’s a curious thing to wonder about. It’s nerve-wracking because, well let’s face it, I have no idea where I am going from here. I have so completely started my entire life over since my fiancé’ died… diving head first into the unknown… its naturally scary to wonder just what will happen when the final day of this project comes.

What will I do with all of these images? Will I be able to showcase them as I truly dream to – in a solo exhibition printed large and sprawling across walls, ten feet tall? Will I be able to find a publisher to create a book of this journey, as I so dream to? What on earth will I do next year? At halfway, I’m struggle more with worrying about what lies ahead… with the next stage of building this new life. But, as I remind myself often, there’s no going back. So I might as well keep on moving and just trust whatever is going to happen will all work out okay. (We all know that’s easier said than done though!)

This week’s image is quite different from all the others I’ve done up to this point. It came about in part by accident. While processing the original image, I switched to the wrong blending mode in photoshop and created something of a double exposure look. Originally it was just a duplicate of the figure, but once I saw the effect, I instantly got a visual in my mind of using stars and nebulae. So while the original feel of this image was more of a searching into a white void… it became instead about a beautiful, mysterious interconnectedness. It became about the connection that each of us has to all those we love who have died… our mothers and fathers, our sons and daughters, cousins, friends, sisters, brothers, grandparents and far away ancestors. They all make up this grand, collective energy that I believe wants to help guide us in this life.

I personally do believe we are very much connected with the spirits of those passed and the universal energy they create and reside in. I know it in my heart, because I use that connection every single day to guide me and help me decide things in my life. I’ve followed intuition along every step of the journey since my fiancé died. To me, those gut instincts come from that greater universal collective – not really from me at all. Often times, I get very specific visuals for photos to create – that seem to arrive out of thin air. Some of the most popular of my images in fact have been such. And those I believe come from some collective energy of souls guiding me. We are all connected to that every day. Even if we aren’t aware of it, I think in the quiet moments – if we get still enough to really hear it – we all can find the guidance we need… it lies in the stardust.

 

“You are stardust, as am I… And one day I too will return to the sky.”

-Excerpt from a poem of mine, Stardust

 

My November Challenge: Totem Feathers

I hope you are enjoying soaking up all the creative awesome from the November challengers. Of course, I could not very well create a challenge on my own blog without also participating in it myself! So here’s a few shots of my project for the month… a hand-painted, hand-cut totem feather!

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So the story on this one is that my other piece was not done. lol. To be more specific, I need some “fresh” sparrow wings in order to do an imprint on the painting. I have always found it cool to give things a new life… I love salvage art for sure, but also in the more morbid arena of giving dead things a new life. In case this makes you wonder, no, I don’t have a freaky collection of taxidermic critters. ;) But I do have some bones, skulls, feathers, and other such elements hanging around. So for the painting (since I am not up to taking out the BB gun in the name of art) I am essentially still playing the waiting game with Daisy the cat until she decides to get hungry. ;)

To experiment with other ways to do the wing print, I gathered some feathers from a turkey vulture last week that had met an unfortunate end from a car on the highway… the things we do in the name of art! Here I am, on the phone with my best friend, running across the highway to snatch up this horribly stinky gross bird carcass. Phone in one hand, dead bird dangling by the wingtips from the other, I run back across the street and next to the truck. “Oh god, it stinks!” I am saying over and over to my girlfriend on the other end of the line. She’s having a good laugh and supporting my weirdness, as she always does! I grab one of Drew’s pocket knives (still supporting my art even from Heaven, thanks babe <3) and cut off a bunch of the larger feathers . Finally, I toss the nasty thing off to the side of the road and promptly drove home to wash my hands. ick!

The loose feathers didn’t work out for the wing print unfortunately, it just looked too forced when I tested it. But now I had all these feathers, so I thought “Hmmm what can I do with these??”  Voila… totem feathers!

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I imagine these to be great tokens to have around you in your studio or workspace as you are focusing on taking flight with your dreams. The white dots represent a white light or spiritual energy that surrounds the colors – which are meant to represent parts of ourself. For me, these three colors represent passion, positivity, and serenity. I’ll be sure to have it up in my studio space bringing me good vibes from now on, and am excited to make some more of these! For me, this is what monthly projects are about… without the monthly challenge, I would have never ended up at this result!

 

Much thanks to Mr. Turkey Vulture, who likely never imagined in a million years that his high-fliying plumage lovely would go on to become art after he passed on to an even higher place in the sky. =)

 

 

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